Considering ...
considering what to do with this blog so far from providential character and unjustly forgotten:
1. Take shame, courage, and type all my stories still threatened by the degradation of paper shelved or "fleshy", posting in this space.
2. Post all reviews and critiques that I did since the beginning of optional Pedagogy.
3. Post private confidences and memes, among other summer squashes, just here, restricting my main blog, the Desk of Psychotic , but only those posts literary, cinematic and "serious."
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Friday, September 10, 2010
Man Sits On Woman Stomach
time more than it should
In little more than a me I will cause 40 years of age. I am stuck financially, I have no reservations or walk-a-half, squandered from 3 years Subsequent waves of various extraordinary expenses - such as changes of address advised at the last minute or health care for eight months - and bad investment choices. In these three years, each time some extra budgetary survival could be achieved, then came an unanticipated cost that was taking away: the end of a debt was accompanied by a court of Shelah river, was a freelance followed by an unexpected car repair due to some external factor to maintenance. Besides fighting to be breathe financially, I have an extra pension, and my horizon is always a maximum of 6 months. Doing things right was not enough, even do much more than my duty to never give me any kind of advantage or guarantee, and is perennial feeling of always being so exposed as is not doing anything. And there is no space to process this, because the world's eyes are also the eyes of my destiny. 50% of the responsibility is entirely mine, me for not having planned to have abused at times when they could have made a reservation, or for failing to take more control of my own life and "made it happen." The other 50% I give to a counting sequence of events that seem shady, but it's not - it happened. Things like finished out of the hospital and be told by the tenant that he decided he needed the apartment in 30 days or less, the worst time to rent real estate speculation.
But get this: life is mine. A person living it well is me, and nobody else. Nobody can be responsible for everything that goes with life itself, but all are responsible for * deal * with what happens with their lives. Therefore, having 50% of the responsibility is to have 100% responsibility.
And then? And then, shut up, hang your head, tap forward and that's it.
In little more than a me I will cause 40 years of age. I am stuck financially, I have no reservations or walk-a-half, squandered from 3 years Subsequent waves of various extraordinary expenses - such as changes of address advised at the last minute or health care for eight months - and bad investment choices. In these three years, each time some extra budgetary survival could be achieved, then came an unanticipated cost that was taking away: the end of a debt was accompanied by a court of Shelah river, was a freelance followed by an unexpected car repair due to some external factor to maintenance. Besides fighting to be breathe financially, I have an extra pension, and my horizon is always a maximum of 6 months. Doing things right was not enough, even do much more than my duty to never give me any kind of advantage or guarantee, and is perennial feeling of always being so exposed as is not doing anything. And there is no space to process this, because the world's eyes are also the eyes of my destiny. 50% of the responsibility is entirely mine, me for not having planned to have abused at times when they could have made a reservation, or for failing to take more control of my own life and "made it happen." The other 50% I give to a counting sequence of events that seem shady, but it's not - it happened. Things like finished out of the hospital and be told by the tenant that he decided he needed the apartment in 30 days or less, the worst time to rent real estate speculation.
But get this: life is mine. A person living it well is me, and nobody else. Nobody can be responsible for everything that goes with life itself, but all are responsible for * deal * with what happens with their lives. Therefore, having 50% of the responsibility is to have 100% responsibility.
And then? And then, shut up, hang your head, tap forward and that's it.
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